I’m tryin’ to think but nuttin’ happens!
Did I find my identity that I was searching for? Did I make a bold move into the unknown shaking off the heavy coils of the past? Did I refine my style of photography so I know what it is? Did I create the sweater of all time by sewing up my swatches in to one? No. But here is what I did get/do/find/make…
- I thought about this project a lot and molded it to what I thought I wanted to do anyway.
- I can’t focus on just one thing, and that is nothing new.
- I created an online blog that was basically just about the present and not about my past life (except for this page).
- My past does seem to keep interrupting.
- It is getting hard to figure out when the past ends.
- I took the damn selfie shots every day (well, maybe missed a few days) even though I do not like them.
- I wrote something in my blog/journal/this thing almost every day, but now the menu is too overcrowded, so what was a good thing to do, actually created something bad, too many words wrapping around and making a mess of a menu designed to keep things neat and orderly, c’est la vie, my paradoxical life.
- I thought about the photos of other people we saw in class (people who weren’t born yesterday) in new ways, ways that might be inspiring.
- Because of the class focus on photography (small pun), I have allowed myself to try to learn more about it rather than be so afraid of it. I’m not exactly afraid of it, I’m afraid that I will never learn it, so my head is in the sand. I was fine taking photos for years without knowing anything other than how to point a camera, then when I tried to learn I saw black in my brain.
- I loved going to a class with humans rather than watching video training (although I have also been watching John Greengo, my hero)
I have discovered that I like (and I think have always liked) looking at and taking photos with:
- light and shadow prominent
- receding or encroaching lines
- natural stuff, rather than plastic and temporary made-up stuff destined for the landfill during my remaining lifetime
- photos of old things, people, buildings, objects that have worn well, not destroyed
- panoramas and photos without end
- macro shots of tiny details (especially when they are in focus)
- that are NOT photographs of junk, poverty, messes, sickness, destruction and ugliness